Issue number one update again: families

Tomorrow is the day and they did it - I should have known they would do it and now they have.

I asked DH to text over the time we can meet in the park for tomorrow - I'm still not comfortable using my number.
I decided earlyish - 11, so then I wouldn't be worrying all day. As far I know he was sent a message back, asking if 11:30 is ok, and by the bandstand. Goodness knows why the bandstand, there's nothing in that end of the park at all! I was thinking the cafe, which is also near the duck pond and swings.

We replied ok.

Then Liam sent me an email to warn me that my granddad might be there.

This is it.

This is actually what I've been waiting for all along, but I stupidly, stupidly had hoped that it was too late for them to start doing that kind of thing. I don't want to see my granddad. He was the best person ever in my childhood and this illusion was shattered over the past few years.

I don't want to not go, say I'm sick or whatever, because 1) it will be obvious and 2) I probably wont have Liam with me next time and 3) I don't actually want to ignore David.

I was coping with meeting two - but mainly because out of everyone, David hasn't let me down at all, and Mez isn't too bad compared to the others. I wasn't happy - I only wanted to see David, but I was coping.
Now they've thrown someone else in, and not just anyone either. Liam has pointed out to me that I will be able to walk away, but they will see this as me making a fuss - it almost equates to confrontation in their eyes.
Plus I don't want to make David uncomfortable. I don't want to cause a fuss with David there. I don't want to cause a fuss with my children there. I just don't want a fuss, not yet. I am prepared to talk to another cousin, and had it planned to before all this came up. But I don't want to go along tomorrow and pretend like all is normal and nothing has happened. That's the game they want me to play - that's the game they always play. You ignore problems and eventually people stop talking about them. I don't see how I can discourage them thinking that without making a fuss. Unless my granddad gets locked indoors tomorrow, things will be uncomfortable.

I just hate this, I should have been more prepared.