I need to remember

Last night I was at a tutorial, and really enjoyed myself.
I wanted to give myself a reminder, because as I walked towards my bus stop with a smile in my heart, I realised that I don't need to have babies to be happy. I don't have to be pregnant or with a newborn to be complete - I can be my own person too and content with that.

Don't get me wrong, I still would Love a baby right now, and practicalities still say that now is the best time, so I am still more than over the moon to know that we will be trying soon.
But I want to remember, for when this baby is older, for when we decide that our family is complete, that I don't have to keep longing for more. I would like to reassure my future self that I can go to university, I can fill my time studying a subject that interest me, I can enjoy learning at tutorials and make friends too.
After my tutorial last night I spoke with Yvonne. She's a lovely woman, and likes me! It helped me to realise that I was without Liam, without the children, without the dog, without a baby in my belly to break the ice, and yet I can still be my own person. And I can still be liked as that person.
It made me feel good!

The tutorial was fab. I learned loads about Romantic poets, dissected a couple of old poems and took part in the class. I'm feeling all motivated for the rest of the course. I'm only a little worried about the exam at the end, simply because I'm more concerned with getting that far in the first place!
I can't wait to get my TMA02 back, I hope it's done OK.

Today is a teacher's strike day, so no school. We're not doing much as I'm determined to wait in, in case my course study materials arrive!

Monday is another day of excitement: I start my breastfeeding peer counsellor course at last!